I can say I am a winner if I won something TODAY, no matter how small, no one can take that away from me.

think that it is very important to discuss how I have combatted anxiety, how I struggled/struggle with it and give a few pointers that I have learned through the years from professionals and my own research.

There have been many dark times in my life where I regret my emotional outbursts and inability to see certain situations with clarity.

The emotions and feelings that have become stronger for me as the years go on include anxiety, excitement, anger, fear and joy.

A letter to my 12 year old self

The last month or two has been a struggle for me since finishing my mental toughness challenge. I think the freedom of being able to eat and drink what I wanted was hard to control at first and it began to mess with the rhythm of my practice schedule and exercise regime which in turn effected my mental clarity. I have felt pretty close to the lowest I have felt this summer, particularly at some events I had high hopes for that I underperformed and did not give it my all due to mental chatter and my inner critic. To be transparent, some days I really felt worthless and like I was no use to anyone or anything.